quiz results

as i just said - i am gonna go take some quizzes (if confused, read post before this and then return to this one)
results:

You Are a Glazed Donut

Okay, you know that you're plain - and you're cool with that. You prefer not to let anything distract from your sweetness. Your appeal is understated yet universal. Everyone dig you. And in a pinch, you'll probably get eaten.

What Donut Are You?

Your 1920's Name is:

Ione Gussie

What's Your 1920's Name?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Who Should Paint You: M.C. Escher

Open and raw, you would let your true self show for your portrait. And even if your painting turned out a bit dark, it would be honest.

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

You Are The Fool

You are a fascinating person who is way beyond the concerns of this world. Young at heart, you are blissfully unaware of any dangers ahead. You are a true wanderer - it has be difficult finding your place in this world. Full of confidence, you are likely to take a leap of faith. Your fortune: You are about to embark on a new phase in your life. This may mean changing locations, jobs, friends, or love status. You are open about what the future will bring, and free of worry. You have made your peace with fate, and you're ready to start down your new path.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Your Birthdate: October 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm. Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche. Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done. Your strength: Your inner peace Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds Your power color: Emerald Your power symbol: Leaf Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

la la la

so i am in a better mood today, still not fantastic, but at least better.
last night i couldnt fall asleep so I was staring at my computer (ok, that sounds odd, but my screensaver is a slideshow of all my pictures, so its actually really entertaining). It was really fun just kinda watching the pictures and thinking about the different memories and such, and then my computer screen turned off because it had been 10 minutes or whatever..... i was kinda sad, but not for too long because i fell asleep soon after.
this morning, my alarm went off a 9 am, and I was really confused. I couldnt tell you what day it was for the life of me, and i had dead arm, so it was kinda hard to turn off my alarm. whoops. after looking at my cell phone and realizing what time it was, I let my alarm go off two more times and finally forced myself out of bed (time - 9:12). Went to german, took a test. I think i did pretty well, hopefully in the 90s. I know there has got to be something i got wrong.
Now I am graphic design. Since it is an art class, it is 2 and a half hours long. We are working on making logos for Jungle Jims. Its this weird international market thing that is somewhere near here that is absolutely humongous and weird. So....... we have to draw them on this special board, and then fill it in with black ink and these fancy permanent pens. we also have to make a color version with colored pencils. today is a "work day" where we just come and work on our stuff for a whole 2 and a half hours. me being the dumbass i am decided to basically finish my black and white one on sunday, for homework..... i dunno what i was thinking. i thought the color version would take me longer than it did. So..... i have been done for about 20 minutes now, and I still have another half an hour to go. whee. lets see, already played the games on my ipod, doodled for a bit..... started to do some touch ups on my logos, which really didnt need touch ups, and so i came very close to actually ruining one of them.... so i decided to stop being so anal before i did some really really bad damage. Now I am on the computer. I have already taken an online quiz, checked both emails, and now i am on here. BORED! grrr. why can't she just let me go early? oh well. whatever.
ok, i think i am gonna go take another online quiz or something.
bye bye

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weird moods lately. that sucks.
roommate grating on my nerves - but she is in florida for til tues, so i have a nice little break. i just want soccer season to start so she will not be in the room so much anymore.
time couldnt be going more slowly.
i need a job, but dont want one, and i dunno if they will even accept me cause i am gonna be asking for a lot of time off..... and then i wont be here all summer. hmm
blech.
thoughts bumping around in my head. cant concentrate on homework worth a shit. german test tomorrow that i should study for but my brain has been addled for the day by plato. grr. i wanna stab that book through the heart.
this weekend was.... ok. fri we stayed in and watched movies and got chinese food. yum yum yum. then sat i did nothing, well errands and such, then we went to a party. the party was shitty and i was not in a going out mood at all. so........ that wasnt so fun. came back here and took care of erin (she had a little too much to drink)....... which made my tummy hurt (gagged a few times). and today i have been wasting time and doing homework. more wasting time than anything else though.
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i dont like being in this mood. it sucks. i am not happy, but not sad. just kinda here.
oh well.

yup

i dunno, just felt like posting.
been pretty busy producing another tape measure, so havent had much time for thinkin or anything, which is probably good... i have been thinking a little about some stuff the past day tho. yesterday i went bowling with Ellen, her boyfriend Eric, his bro Chris, and his girlfriend Katie (that was confusing - two katies - not good). I don't really know Eric very well, and this was the first time i had ever met Chris and Katie. I felt kinda awkward. They were so nice and everything, but I just couldnt help feeling like a 5th wheel most of the time. So that was alright. It was better than sitting around the dorm like I would have if I hadnt gone.

oh, i only have 5 minutes left on my cell phone for the rest of the month (well, til the 26th).... so call my room phone, text me, or talk to me online. or call me if its the weekend, cause then i have free minutes. yay

oh and my spring break is feb 25th through march 5th. if anyone is gonna be in town or anything - call me!
la la la, just kinda thinkin about stuff, but i dont really feel like articultating it here.

a bit of bragging....

ok so today i was rather productive - i went to two classes, got lots of homework done, got a job application (for the bookstore), and made a model of a tape measure. that's right, you read it right, a model of a tape measure.

for my 3d class, we make models of things in cardboard. so i made my first of three models of the tape measure tonight (we have to make a 2'' a 4'' and a 6''). i made the 2''. it looks kinda funny cause it is "linear contour" or something along those lines, and so we just make a frame with lines to show where the outer layer would go, and we are supposed to kinda expose the innards, so there is a spool of "tape" in there....

the real one along with some of my detailed plans and drawings:


mine:


again:


to give you a bit of an idea of the scale (it's tiny! and the details were so annoying!! grrr. it is actually the same size as the real one.....)

hot boy wall

ok so ashley was a genius and brought "20 years of sexiest men alive". it was a people magazine. so... ashley and i expanded our hot boy wall, just a tad.....

before:


after:
part one (over my desk)


part two (continuing from over my desk to over the bathroom door and down the side)

hello

la la la
i dont really know why i am blogging......i really don't have anything better to do;
i could shower... i think i will do that in a little bit....
i could move around the room - i am thinking of rearranging my side, and ashley said i could... but i dunno, i might be too lazy. lets see. i already know what i am gonna do. so we shall see.
ashley is watching oprah and doin stuff on her computer. i am sitting on my bed, typing this, and talking to carolyn. she is currently sending me an offspring song - spare me the details.
its dark, cloudy, and rainy outside. its actually about 50 degrees outside though, which is nice, but it is windy, which makes it pretty cold. all i have heard about today is that it is snowing in stl. it is supposed to snow here tomorrow. i kinda just want it to be warm again, i dont really care though.
today is friday the thirteenth. its really funny how suspicous some people are. I am actually kinda happy today becuase today is 11 months for me and Nick. It is really weird thinking about that. It doesnt seem like it has been that long. Its also weird because the last anniversary that i actually spent in stl was august, so 5 months ago. that makes me kinda sad to think about, but oh well, what can you do?
I don't know what i am doing this weekend. i have heard a lot about people wanting to go to parties or to soupie's (the bar that is about three blocks away, that has a dance floor and stuff)... but i dont have much money, and i dont really feel like doing that stuff. Jenna's birthday was last week and so i think we are going out to dinner for her bday tomorrow night. that will be fun. I dunno what i am gonna do this weekend, cause i dont want to hang out here alone, but i really dont feel like party hopping or whatever, and probably babysitting drunk or tipsy people. blech.
blah mood. headache..... i think i am gonna take some meds and take a shower

my little box...

I see you are admiring my little box....



hehe, for my 3d class, my homework was to make a 6 inch box, paint it red and black, and make it "seamless" (don't have the edges of the cardboard showing). I am quite proud of my little box thank you! Its funny. hehe. so yeah, the first of my many 3d projects. :)

blech

havin a kinda hard time at the moment. its fun bein back at school with my xavier buddies, but i would rather be at home, with all my stl buddies and nick. oh well, not much i can really do at the moment. my classes seem alright, lots of work. blech. yup. ok, gotta go buy some school supplies and such. whoop dee doo.

Buffalo

Greetings from Buffalo.
The plane trips were good, everything on time and such. i was sooo sleepy. i napped on the second flight, but not the first. I landed in buffalo, and went straight to a restaurant where most of my aunts and uncles and cousins were. I got some good old buffalo pizza (mmmm yummy in my tummy. i could eat that stuff all day). Then we went to the funeral home. The wake was really sad. I didn't cry, but I came close a few times. The wake always kinda creeps me out. I don't like looking at the body, because they never look like how they did when they were alive, so it just messes with my memories of them. For example, my grandpa always had very full almost purpleish lips, and they were always slightly open, but his lips were stretched tight, and were almost pinkish from all the makeup. It just didn't look right. And his skin was too pink, my grandpa had a more olive complexion. It just doesnt look right. I dont like wakes. It was really good seeing all my cousins and relatives. I am really glad that I came now, because now I realize that I need to be here for my family, and I need them more than I thought I did. When I was in stl, I was kinda denying the fact that grandpa had died, and now, since I am here, I have to come face to face with it, and I think it will really help tomorrow (the funeral) will help.
Tomorrow is gonna be a hard day, I know that I am gonna cry at the funeral. I almost started crying a few times today when a few of my cousins teared up. Especially when I saw John wipe some tears away, cause he is always ... i dunno. tough isnt exactly the word, but i guess more closed, business like..... i dunno. (this is random, but I think he was a lot like stuey from family guy when he was little).
So, tomorrow I am going to a prayer service at the funeral home, then to the church for the funeral, then the gravesite. Then I think I am hanging out with my family for a little while. My plane takes off at 3:30 or so I think...... I should be back in stl around 8 (central time).

I just read my grandpa's obituary. Here is my shortened version. Herbert Ignatius Sturm. born March 30, 1920, died Jan 4, 2006. He was 85, and died from parkinsons disease. Grace, wife of 58 years, is now 84. Had 6 children (Mary, Herb, Grace, Tom, Kathy, Jim). and 20 Grandkids (I am not going to name us all). So far has 4 great grandkids with another on the way (Jacob, Caleb, Jesse, and Anna). Worked as a production manager for General Mills. Served for 4 years in the army (stateside) during WW2. Loved to play piano and the organ.

Ok, that was just a random thing for me, you don't have to read it. It just was kinda my thoughts.....

my head hurts

it has been an....... (choose one of the following: horrific, stressful, emotional, tired, headachey, runny nosey)........ morning.
My grandpa died a little after 6:00 am (Eastern time). His wake is thursday and friday and the funeral is saturday morning.
My dad woke me up this morning to tell me about grandpa.
My mom woke me up at 11:00 this morning to tell me to make my decison. Here were my choices:
1- Pack up all my stuff and leave stl in a few hours, without saying goodbye to any of my friends or boyfriend, and go to Buffalo with my parents for the funeral. Then have my parents drive me back to cinci on sunday or fly back to cinci on sunday from buffalo.
2- stay home and go back to cinci on sunday as planned.

so basically, choose family or friends.

to sum up the next hour: i cried, and blew my nose, and then cried. got a gigantic headache, which impeded decision-making. wished i could go back to sleep..... called carolyn. cried. got a brilliant idea from carolyn. nick called, cried some more. took a shower. collected my thoughts. figured out my plan of action:
1- pitch carolyn's idea to the rent's. carolyn's idea being: fly up for the funeral on friday. so i get to stay in stl for a few more days and i get to be with my family.
2- if one fails, leave with my parents for buffalo in a few hours.

so i pitch the plan to my mom, and find out that the plane would cost about $450. Pricey, yes? But she likes the plan, because if i fly back to stl on saturday, i can still ride with sam to cinci and my mom and dad can stay in buffalo a few extra days. She has to talk to my dad about it (he was at work still, to come home in about an hour). my job now : pack.

so I pack. the majority of my stuff being packed, my mom calls me back downstairs. they have decided that carolyn's plan is what we are gonna do. (THANK YOU CAROLYN! YOU ARE A GENIUS AND I OWE YOU MY LIFE)

Final Plan of Action:
-Parents leave today to go to Buffalo.
-I fly to Buffalo on Friday - leaving stl at11:00 in the am. (Anyone wanna give me a ride to the airport? i will love you forever!!) I have a layover in cincinnati (how ironic is that?)
-I go to the wake on friday and the funeral on saturday.
-I fly back to stl on saturday - arriving in stl around 8:00 (Anyone wanna pick me up? I will love you for forever and a day!!!)
-I leave sunday to return to Cincinnati

So that was my morning. Now i have a humongous freaking headache. I think i may take a nap.

this is for keegs

Keegan wanted me to post pics of my drawings. so here some are.
these are all pretty old..... cause i dont have my sketchbook with me, these are from my old sketchbook with a couple drawings from today.

this is from the pic of my earring (i posted it a few posts before this one). i drew this one today.

Calvin. one of my favorite comic book characters.

My favorite xmen - Shadowcat with Lockheed. I love this one. the picture turned out kinda bad, but the drawing actually looks really good. I drew this in march of 03.

Kate Winslet and Leann Rimes. When I got bored at work (karate) i would draw pics from the US Weekly. This is from last year - over the summer i think.

Hobbes. My other favorite comic book character.

Sailor Venus. hehehe. If you cant read the saying - it says "Life's all about Boys. Gotta have 'em". :):) Drawn freshman year.

Arwen. I drew this last year... i think.

Grandpa

I found out yesterday that my Grandpa is really sick. He isn't eating. He is probably going to die soon. He has parkinsons diesease and has lived in a nursing home for a while now (i can't remember how many years). Its really sad going to visit him, because he rarely talks and he looks so sick. It is hard to tell if he recognizes us at all. Some days it seems like he knows what is going on and who is talking to him. It is just hard for me to see, because I have very little memory of him when he was well. He lives up in Buffalo, and so i only see him once or twice a year. He started getting sicker when i was rather little, and so i have very few good memories of a healthy grandpa. I remember sitting on his lap, or next to him, and wondering why his hands shook and jiggled. I remember him playing the piano at Thanksgiving mass, and when we would visit him at home. I remember playing the piano for him and seeing him be so proud of me. I miss that Grandpa. And its weird, because since that Grandpa has been gone for so long, it seems almost like he died then and the Grandpa I have now is a totally different person. I feel bad, because I feel like I should be more upset than I am about Grandpa dying.
Another weird thing I have been thinking about is that, when he dies, I will only have one Grandparent left. My Grandma Fortune died of cancer when I was one (Thanksgiving of 1987) and Grandpa Fortune died of colon cancer when I was 13 (Valentine's day of 2000). My Grandma Sturm is still alive and very well.
Death is so weird. I thought about this a lot a while ago as well becuase we were talking about Euthanasia in theology. Is is better to die with dignity early on in the illness, or suffer and live as long as possible and let God take your life? I was really torn, because I have seen the effects of terrible illnesses on both of my Grandpas and both of the familes as well. It causes so much suffering to watch them die so slowly, but does that make it ok to take their life? Some people hold out in hopes of a miracle, or some kind of cure.......
I dunno.
I just don't know.